NAN GOLDIN

This is the photograph I am going to replicate for my 'villain', she is not necessarily a bad person, but she has been some through some trauma. 

For a number of years I was deeply involved with a man. We were well suited
emotionally and the relationship became very interdependent. Jealousy was used to

inspire passion. His concept of relationships was rooted in … romantic idealism … I craved the dependency, the adoration, the satisfaction, the security, but sometimes I felt claustrophobic. We were addicted to the amount of love the relationship supplied ... Things between us started to break down, but neither of us could make the break. The desire was constantly reinspired at the same time that the dissatisfaction became undeniable. Our sexual obsession remained one of the hooks. One night, he battered me severely, almost blinding me.

(Quoted in The Ballad of Sexual Dependency, p.8.)

The photograph above is a self-portrait in colour of Nan staring into the camera. Her eyes are all swollen with red blood in the white of her eye which mirrors the shade of her lipstick. The photograph portrays the end to her long-term abusive relationship as well as a period of her documented life. The dark shadows behind her head indicate the use of flash and also that the photograph was taking at nighttime as their is no light coming through the curtains.